Today it's two months since Leonard passed away. I think of him every day, but being distractedly busy recently has not allowed me to really ponder much. Yet the grief is never far away. It is heavy like a rock in a backpack...not like a sharp knife piercing, just a dull weight.
A rash of young people in our lives are suddenly pairing up and dating. I would really have enjoyed seeing Leonard grow into this phase of life. Not sure why this in particular hurts so bad, but I would so have loved to see him get married, and he would have made an awesome dad.
Recently I saw a musical performance in which a young man who looked remarkably like Leonard wore a tux and sang. I thought, "That's how Leonard would have looked at his wedding." It was almost more than I could handle in a manner appropriate in public.
"The pain never really goes away, but life goes on," experienced people tell me. They're right.
Anniversaries like this are always painful. May God be near!
ReplyDeleteThe blade of the piercing knife has dulled a bit. Yet, after two months I miss Lenny more than ever!
ReplyDeleteoops didn't mean to be anonymous hit the wrong one
ReplyDeleteI figured that was you. Here's a big hug +++OOOOOFFF!!+++ and lots of love and concern and prayers.
ReplyDeleteand i send another hug - oooooft-
ReplyDeletewe all care so much that the rest of us somehow muddle thru the pain and grief but somehow be okay. love ya, nette and j. aunt g.